Monday, July 19, 2010
focus for everything and will not regret in future @ 10:43 PM
i wanna prove to you that i really working hard for my studies now..
from the second last week of june holiday i had began my motivation for studies and i also being very automatically went to sign up for POA tution before i gonna flunk it again..
i don't wanna dissapoint you again and again
please let me have e space to breathe whenever i can..
please let me be it where i wanna study..is my style of studying..i wanna try out that way when i could focus my concentration to studies instead of sitting in front of the computer surfing all day long...
i had slowly changed myself..
im not gonna let go the stress in me for now till the end..
cause i know that i need stress so that i can go on and motivate myself to keep on studying before i let go and slack again..
whenever you asked me hows my preparation for my examinations..i always will say i don't know..i know thats make you very dissapointed but so sorry.
i just can't built up my confidence in having neither good results nor having a passing mark
cause to me..i failed to do so everytime..
im always scared of my lack of confidence and over confidence that ended up will just dissapoint you and myself..
im now really gonna work hard till the end
im not gonna slack anymore..
juz that sometime i need to rest lots...
nevertheless...
im still being alone out there..
freely doing what i wanna to do..
i think my freedom has gone far away lots..
im juz grateful to what i had..
by comparing the past and now..
i really had more free time to focus and im not gonna waste it.
please friends..this few months had been lots of quarrels,arguements,misunderstandings..
but friends are still friends..
please untie the knots and clear the misunderstanding please..
as a middle person/audience..
i really do feel bad being seeing friendship falls for some stupid reasons
hope you all can talk as time pass and the incidents will fade off soon..
everything we do need time..
it takes time for friends to calm down and being together again..
think twice before you do it..
face every consequence that you did before..
there will be no u-turn for everything you had done..
only face it and solve it..no avoiding and escape
it will just increase your guilty and regrets
~O ends XX~